Treasured Memories

2007-04-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

they always seem to be flying infront of me....that i found myself struggling to catch up.....my body felt heavy.....my legs wont move.....its been like this every this particular day for as long as i can remember ....well....i cant complain.....i shouldnt have requested.....should have let them be....but y did i requested it in the first place?i donno......jealous maybe??y jealous?? i donno....i just am clueless about myself....
my juniors seem to disrespect me......or maybe disrespect was the wrong word....i always try to be nice to them....but..... maybe too nice.....they crossed the line almost too often.....was it not clear enough for them?? or did i forgot to draw it?? my character shifted too much....i have to shift it back......back abit.....enough to make it in the centre....to balance it.....i didnt used to enjoy talking too much....and now...i wonder....maybe i shouldn't talk too much.....i shouldnt care too much about things.....maybe if i sticked to the"do when asked" character....it wouldnt have been better...... well....enough of my thoughts.... have to go for tuition....

dust dust dust

2007-04-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..............HOW LONG NEVER UPDATE LIAO AHZ???!!! FEELS LIKE YEARS but its only been months....haiz haiz haiz......april liao hor......so fast.....4 months pass.....haiz haiz.............so many things to update......haiz.......lets see..... many things have changed....haiz.....about to step down as prefects le....than still waiting to collect my hard earned NCC awards.....my a maths is improving....but not my chem....proberbly the teacher.....still single.....as usual....NOBODY WANTS ME!!!! lolx....jkjk.....must be growing too fat le.....AHHH....y suddenly so despo....hahas.....cough cough....waaa...this blog so dusty..... horrible sia.....must go clean up.....and find a new skin...if i can find the time..... haiz....tired tired tired......i need rest rest rest...... this weekend not enough rest.....zzz....haiz.....must go do hw le.....haiz........hope i can come back often ......

LONG TIME NO POST!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-02T02:02:00.000-08:00

came back from 3A chalet not long ago and now have to go off for camp pinnical.......4DAYS LEH.......... T_T......so many camps....anyway....i think i havent updated about the thailand trip and engineer's course hor??haiz....thailand trip...okok lah....the CIP work was actually fun....heh...dont have to clean toilets....i wanna go back MBK and shop again....so big....so many things....WAAA.....i love the shopping!!!!bought back so many things....haiz....luggage almost over loaded...got so high in thailand...until got carried away.... some idiot shouted at me....but nvm....cant be bothered with assholes who can shout to u today for no reason and talk to u the next day like nth happened.....the hotels there sux....only the last one which is a 4 star hotel was nice....came back to singapore...and me parents picked me up...

engineers course...slacker's camp!!....nice....first day was the metex and knots and leshes lessons...day 2 was the motorboat and Mob 4 lessons....day 3 was engineer's challenge...put all our skills to the test....than we had camp fire at night and collection of badges....day 4 GO HOME!! yay!!but on day 4.....a teacher officer who goes by the name of eric koh wanted to look for trouble with punggol NCC unit....complained so much to the camp ic....if i see that bloody Koh again.....i'm GONNA KICK HIM SKY HIGH...and oh.....thimo...i understand u want the post of ASM...but if u are not gonna keep your freaking attitude down....i'm gonna find someone else to replace u

3A chalet....morning lots of ppl were late...not alot of ppl wanted to watch happy feet....but the movie was rather nice....than we had lunch...and borded the bus and off to the chalet...we checked in and slacked in the room until games time....and dinner at around 6....had BBQ at around 8....sooo effectively had dinner from 6 till end of BBQ which was rather late...day 2 we had breakfast , check out and than everybody split....

haiz.....2 more days till camp pinnical.....hope its fun....i dont wanna rot in camp....be back on thursday afternoon....zzz...

damn it...

2006-10-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

wa liao....its not like my mood very good lor....my a maths almost fial...my chinese fail by one mark...and all my mother know is to scold and scold and scold....she don't even give a damn about the awards i earn....the posts that i have fought so hard to earn...she dont even give a damn about the comments miss wong wrote on the report book...all she see on the report book is the bad side.....she just turn a blind eye on the good ones...i damn pissed and FUCKED UP...whole year round i work so hard just to get scolded everyday....WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS??!! sec one i score so well... my maths can even get 95%...i dont see her saying anything good...now get so low results she didnt even give a word of encourgement...now she want me to change my maths tuition and quit my CCAs...I WORK SO FUCKING HARD AND NOT EVEN A WORD OF COMFORT FROM HER...its not like a-maths is that easy.....so smart OWNSELF TAKE THE TEST AND PORVE THAT SHE CAN DO BETTER LAH...can't even understand a word of a-maths still want to scold me...NOBODY IN THIS WORLD WILL EVER UNDERSTAND ME.....

EOYs!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-04T02:40:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!! tml is the start of EOYs!!! DIE DIE DIE!!! howhow??? i never study much!!!! how??!!?!!?!? die die die die die die..............waaa!!!! DO NOT STUDY LATE!!! if not will be like me.....brain must absorb like shit!!!brain over heat le!!! die die die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ANYWAY....tml is chinese than will be followed by english.... wth....all the subby are messed up....a-maths at the last day.....shit lah.....aaa!!...but lucky....more time to study....zzz....must go relax my brain le....later cannot study properly.....than die die...... = S

sunday sunday sunday.....

2006-09-16T22:05:00.000-07:00

another boring sunday.....woke up at 11am in the morning.....drank a cup of milo....was about to go down for my ophir medical check up......than give my mother nag and nag and nag....in such a bad mood liao still nag at me....almost scold back...anyway....wanted to try out the clinic at econ there....but haven't 11.45 than close liao....decided to go punggol plaza de....walk half way saw christina holding a few envolope....must be want to post sth.....talk talk for a while than continued walking....arrived at punggol plaza clinic...nobody de.....yay...donnit to wait....the doctor is ok lah....check here check there....than charge me $30....crazy...so ex....anyway...went home for my lunch....

sry sheereen....wanted to do this yesterday....but wasn't in the mood....anyway.....

7 weird facts about me....
-my mood changes very fast
-i always fake a smile even if i'm sad
-i'm a totally different person when i'm in a different attire
-i bottle up my anger most of the time
-i love handling weapondry
-my chinese language sux even though i'm a chinese?
-i'm a freaking evil person

7 habits....
-study at night
-sleep very late
-online everyday
-mess up my hair
-daydream
-looking out for girls everywhere i go?? = x
-listens to music

7 things about me....
-i'm a bloody despo.... =S
-I LOVE NCC
-always alone
-a bloody failure
-i look and sound fierce??
-i'm silent when bored...
-really need someone to talk to....................................................

7 ppl to do this...
-Tempestt
-Huiyin
-Sheryl
-T-Liting
-K-Liting
-Cat
-Bridget

Happy doing.....

first week of term 4....

2006-09-16T06:30:00.000-07:00

haiz.....come back to school for the final term liao....exams are just 3 weeks away....its a danger zone.....mdm yap just completed all the a-maths chapters...now concentrating on e-maths.....damn....my results consists of one failure....fail leh....die lah....how??......was it cause of all the camps??? damn lah....must keep up.....cannot die....cannot drop to 4B or 4C....must carry on in 4A....cannot fail anymore... cannot cannot....thursday went to camp with the sec ones for their imt shoot......they were damn noisy and couldn't even listen to instructions....no discipline....no respect for seniors.....on the way back....some of them even made fun of us.......fu*Kers....went back to school....my friends can tell me that the bus was so noisy that even people outside can aloso hear....yes...it was that noisy.....i was thinking on giving them a whole lot of punishments.....but mr low was there.....all he gave was 20 push ups and talked abit.....those bloody idiots could even smile after all that....just yeaterday....only half the part As turned up...they were the one and only brave lot who dared to turn up and acept the conquences....the rest leh....no balls...not men....can fucking hell join the girls unit liao...give them skirt to wear...than for those who came.... through out the training give me shit drills....horriendous......the part Bs also got problem.....treat them too well....lost their sense of discipline....donno where to draw the line.....hopeless case.....next training must really screw them to the ground liao....cannot let this carry on.... damn pissed off.....the one thing i cannot stand...is that they don't own up for their mistakes.....fuckers......

end of term3 holis

2006-09-10T06:27:00.000-07:00

ITS THE END OF TERM 3 HOLIDAYS!!! OMG!!! haiz...sian...so busy sia....came back from senior spec course on sunday...wa...luckly visited the doctor on friday...felt better during the course....the whole course was damn slack( i love it).....maybe cause of my squad...well....arrived there for the in-processing kenna S2...wait for a while more than was told to move to the chairs for the opening speech....they talked about the test we gonna get later....than talked about the duties of the USM....after that was lunch....ate super fast...than had a little slack section....than the platoon was soon split into 4 sections for the test...the test actually supposed to last until 9pm....but we actually ended at 6.....where got test take so long de....anyway...we had our dinner at 6.30pm....than slack around until 9...then we march back to the BLKs to report for supper....after supper...kenna called to stay back for sth...kenna shock...for no reson must stay back...we than realised we stay back cause we were nominated for an award....pro sia...never do anything also can get nominated...anyway....it was a debate about ncc matters....didn't get the chance to talk....soo...nvm....7 were choosen to saty back....the rest of us went back to our bunks...wa....the bed look so battered up....but was still nice to sleep on...went to shower abit....than came back and lay down to write appraisers....had to be 4 notebook sized pages sian.....spent like....an hour writing.... like 2 pages...than fell asleep....we woke up at 5.45am to prepare our things and complete our appraisers...ran down to report at 7.15am...had a spot check....than carried on with our breakfast....than had our lessons and than AAR...half way through... the nominies were called back for another interview......i thought they choose le....anyway....we went in 2 by 2...all the ncc big shots were inside...wa...shocking...was questioned about our school unit and about complicated matters....than was invited out...waited for everybody to fall back in...later we were told to go fallin.....we walk back halfway and was told to wait....than the officer pull some of us out..including me and told the rest to return...yay....got award to collect le...they give us a rehersal than after that was the real thing le...after everything...we went for a buffet...than was told to fallin....we march back to the BLKs to collect our bags ....we were about to go collect our lanyard and ranks...yay...we fallin and waited for the sir to call our names....soon everybody was holding the ranks cert and wearing a lanyard....yay!! happy....than we picked our bags and marched out .....end of SSC....yay!!

nth much happened the next few days....thursday went out to northpoint with zalinah ,suhaila and sheereen to catch a movie....monster house...quite nice...regretted going there early...i arrived northpoint at about 2.30....when we were supposed to meet at 3...nvm...walked around see see look look....northpoint changed alot....anyway...reciecved a sms from suhaila saying that zalinah suddenly had sth on...would be very late....than i was there like ...die...northpoint so small ....where to hang around?walked around the whole area twice...than went to sportslink to wait for sheereen...only to realise that she is still at home waiting for suhaila to call.....nvm...don't bully her into comming down to accompany me...she already very poorthing le...soo...what to do??hang around the 3rd floorand try to call my primary sch friends down to accompany me...but all busy....suey sia...all the fast food and foodcourt areas all packed with ppl....nvm....went to the 3rd floor near the escalator area ....stare down to 2nd floor and stone there....at 3.45 i sms suhaila....they say reaching le....so i went down to the bus terminal to wait....one bus came....no sign of them....2nd bas came...still no sign of them....all i see is mrs liew walking down the bus....suey sia....go northpoint also can see her...3rd bus came...at last they arrived...4.10pm....they come down and the first thing they do....laugh....waa...i can cry sia...went to the royal sportting house to wait for sheereen....when she came...she see zalinah and suahila but neba noticed me....sad sia...i transparent de....nvm....went to buy the tickets and went back to northpoint to kill time....walk here walk there.....soon...times up le....went to buy snacks and than entered the room.....zalinah cannot stop taking pics....every second also must take de...watch finish le....accompany sheereen to popular to look for sth...she couldnt find her thing ....so she went to look for the aunty...than i heard her asking about beyblade....i was like...huh?? beyblade outdated le...popular where got sell??...waa....her mother asked her to buy for her younger brother...ayio....sheereen....u might as well ask from me lah....i got so many at home....limited edition de also have sia....anyway...this kind of thing now very hard to find de....we than accompany sheereen to wait for her bus....chit chat for a while than the bus come liao...we than went back to the bus 85 waiting area....bus come le!!...just in time to catch it...went up the bus...take a few more pics....than went home le.....

yesterday went to tem's house to tutition for the first time...tuition half way got things eat somemore...pro pro....tuition finish liao got lunch eat....happy sia...after that nth to do...went to tem's room play maple...play liao than realised jun yang not comming.....sad hor tem? anyway...went home after that and enjoy myself....

today went to pasir ris for a BBQ!! was with my National Camp platoon...echo 3 rox!!2pm reached the mrt to meet up with them....thought couldn't find them....but never knew they were so easy to spot...waited for a few more ppl....than we headed off for the BBQ pit....arrived there and realised that we dont have the metal grill....how?go buy lor....went to cheers to buy...remembered to buy the drinks too....buy finish le...walk halfway back rain....suey lah...today BBQ today rain....the rain got lighter liao than continued walking back...yay.....everybody hiding in the shade....decided to play a game of polar bear....nobody wanted to accuse at first....than this 2 person wanted to get the ball rolling...started accusing each other....in the end i was the one accusing ....than i failed to kill off someone...cause i also not sure if he is the polar bear or not...than suddenly this polar bear gave himself away....so i accuse him and he died.....but before he was voted out...i got a hint from someone that there was another polar bear in that area....the next round...the person who gave me the hint for voted out by the polar bear....omg....so i confirmed the person and voted the next polar bear.....but nobody wanted to vote her off....sad sia....in the end we decided to end the game and reveal the polar bear...i was rite!! she was the polar bear!!nvm...continued with the BBQ cause the rain stop for some time le...we BBQ until 6+ than we decided to go...we might be having a chalet during the december holis...yay......good......

can't wait for my next ncc training....can wear lanyard le!!! YES!!! .....anyway.....sheereen.....cheer up and stay strong ya?? u are not useless....don't start looking down on yourself.....don't think too much and stay happy kkie??

GO SENIOR SPEC COURSE GO

2006-08-29T06:08:00.000-07:00

zzz....donno y i going to school later and later.....funny sia.....anyway....today was totally fine.....only for when during physics that i felt alittle sick.....went for the ncc meeting only to realise that it was canceled....ran around the school looking for teachers...in the end ended up in the gallery realising that there was more than enough people and there was no need for me to skip my A.maths class....luckly it was only on revision....heng!!....i soon had to go to compass for my hair cut.... damn it....if i wasn't feeling sick i could have gone to northpoint to meet my OBS friends....ah well....had my hair cut and after that.....i realised that compasspoint was colder than before......was it me or was it the aircorn?....in the end....it was me....damn...down with fever....ate 2 panadol....should be fine now....had to push the physics project to zl.....sad....

anyway... i came back from my national camp trip not long ago damn chatoic on the first day....almost kenna out of camp cause they can't find my name on the list....in the end i realised that one of our PSS teacher officer forgot to send the form to HQ...but well....it was fine....managed to find a name to replace....i replaced this guy from donno which funny school...well...must seriously thank him anyway....if its not for him....i already kenna OOC le....the camp was fun....but lots of waiting.....we rush to wait and we wait to rush....funny....i got to do dragon boatarchery...aero modling...campfire night...SOC and many more....hope HQ remembered to send me the national camp badge....i don wanna wait so long for nothing...

2nd SEP to 3rd SEP is our senior spec course....YAY!!!....good luck everybody!!!

I AM BACK!!!

2006-08-06T08:00:00.000-07:00

actually...i'm back a few days ago...i was home like on the 4th august....OBS was dead fun...The first day at punggol jetty....was raining...and the wind was very strong and was dead cold....glad to enter the boat and zoomed off towards Pulau Ubin....there , we met Gideon who seprated us into our groups...i found raffles que and sat down together with Brian and Zalinah.....we waited for everybody to settle down before the instructors started the course....instructor for raffles was Gideon....was glad in some way....donno y....anyway....we went down for our briefing and photo taking.....and soon, we were on our way towards Camp 2...surrended my money and ez-link card... went to check out the store and took out many equipments...the tents ...spare backpack...bottles....blue tupe...and ground sheets.......collected the food suplies and everything...we learnt rope tying and played games about trust ...we were soon setting up our tents that were up a flight of 101 step staircase...we were soon taught about belaying and found ourselves climbing a low rock wall....the main thing was about the belaying and not the wall...soon found ourselves cooking dinner....after dinner...we washed up all the masstins and pots....had a bathe later and found ourselves caught in a fire drill....everybody got scolded for our slow reaction and was dismissed back ....we had a night group circle and wrote down rules we set for ourselves and soon found ourselves walking to our tents.
the next day...we had to take down our tents first thing in the morning....packed up everything and placed them at our meeting area 101 steps below... washed up had lunch and went for our high elements ....it was called the tripple D....basically ...its just 2 hanging wire on both sides and logs that make every levels...i found that i had no problem by myself...but i had to help my teammate, farhana...who couldnt get up ...later...we loaded our stuffs into the speedboat and had our Kayaking lesson....learnt the capsize drill and stuffs...we were supposed to be in pairs of a girl and a boy...nobody chose me....but in the end Zalinah looked for me....so ....carried on with the activity and soon found ourselves paddling towards camp 1....we set up our tents there....was a small and rocky area ......had to fight with the other group for space...soon had our bath and went off for our dinner which was already cooked for us at the canteen....we had our meeting after that and farhana volenteered to be the next day's leader...we went for our supper later while farhana had her meeting with the other group's leaders...supper that day was greenbean soup!! nice....farhana came back later to instruct us about wednesday's activity...i shall not say anything bad about her...but the way she acted and how she did things allowed me to confirm that she was most likely doing this for her first time and thats y the way she worked was...not liked by many.....anyway...sheereen went missing when we were packing for the next day and so we went to look for her....spent a long time looking....we dissmissed the thought of telling an instructor as it could get her into trouble...and at last we found her....she looked sad and angry in some way...storm out of the hall and went to the meeting area without talking to anybody...i was stunned...anyway....we informed her of tml's activity and went back to the tents together....
the third day was a killer...woke up at 4.30am to unpitch the tents....had our breakfast at the canteen...bee hoon...nice!! ....went to collect our lifevest and kayaks....loaded our things up the boat...this time...including four 20 L bottles...we set off at around 9 and went off in our kayak for our 14km journey....was a killer.....had lunch in the middle of the seas...arrived at our camp site at around 4.30pm... some unpleasent things happened....luckly nobody quarreled with the instructors...quickly set up all the tents and dinner....i had to gather up all the bottles and fill them from the water from the 20L bottles we brought ...brain went to eat with the rest first....and help me tell them to fill a can of noodles for me...thanks for reserving the food guys!!...anyway....i finished filling the bottles and went out with brain to look for liting's group...we arrived at the other end of the campsite and found them....so many punggol people there....we mixed around and went back to our own area...helped cover the bags with poncho...and made sure that there were no wild dogs around the area....had our night talk with Gideon and went to sleep...the tent was cooling...maybe cause of the sea breeze....
we woke up at around 6 to pack everything...but were an hour late for the briefing...Gideon didnt scold...but we were all guilty...yesterday was the only day we didnt bathe...and we brushed our teeth at the back of the site....soon we packed everything again and carried the bags ,bottles and tents to a hut at the starting point of our land expidition...hoping to see a wild boar!!...we learn everything from Gideon and started our journey....we walked a big round around the hut and when we relaised it, brain announced it out and laughed...laugh until fall....fall liao still nvm....his trackpants tore and had a long cut on his leg...Gideon attended to the injury....we soon continued and found ourselves finding check points and climbing to the top of pulau ubin....nice view....i soon found myself carrying a 20L bottle a tent, 4 bottles and my backpack....along the way...Sheereen almost fall and looked like she wanted to faint....in just seconds....she found herself free of bottles and her backpack being changed to a lighter one.....Brian was so high until he got tired....the journey was long and hot...so brian and I decided to get high and entertain the group to help them forget their tiredness....we soon found ourselves flying towards camp.....after like 6 hours of walking....we were at last back to camp 2!! rested for awhile and went off to set up the tents...had to fight for areas to cook...the day went by rather fast.....it was our last day having dinner together.....there was suddenly a power failure which chased us back to sleep....
its now the last day.....which means lots of washing up and admin work....we had our last morning circle together....had breakfast and washed everything we used.....a few bottles went missing......had to pay a total of $4.20....went to the sovinour shop to buy some shirts...the bottles were sold out....we had our last meeting together and wrote our personal journal...i sat down a distance away from the beach and wrote about everything...i looked up after writing and had a good view of the sea with a little lonely figure sitting at the edge of the jetty which seems to be Sheereen...we soon found ourselves back in our school groups and than back to school....on the boat, i kept looking at the island....and didnt feel like wanting to leave it...in just 5 days...i've learnt lost of stuff...and met lost of new friends............. gonna miss OBS...

M0512/O6 Watch Raffles: Gideon

Brian
Zalinah
Sheereen
Chew Ling
Kelly
Razi
Ming Zhou
Stephanie
Phoebie
Shah
Rashid
Reezal
Hazim
Gazali
Farhana

OBS!!!!OBS!!!! ALL THE WAY!!!!

2006-07-30T08:17:00.000-07:00

goin off to OBS camp tml.....goin to miss out on alot of lessons....well...i don't learn much from some teachers anyway....today went to beachroad to buy my camping supplies.....spent alot there.....than went to suntec to meet them.....walked around carrefour with my family until tempestt arrived...went down to chat with her until the rest arrived......went to buy tickets for a movie....than went to eat noodles for lunch...rushed to arcade for awhile.....and than went to catch a movie....was rather lame and boring....than waited for junyang to have a quick dinner and than went home to pack for tml....haiz.....will fly back to school for ncc on friday!!

sianz...

2006-07-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

haiz....today went to school...early in the morning kept thinking about the a-maths......didnt have the mood to go to school too early at first.....but still didnt want people scolding for opening the door late...went to school....entered the prefects room...endured the usual silence...now that all the girls that come early have their perfect partners...they always rush upstairs with their stead without exchanging much words with anybody in the room....still trying to get used to this...donno y i feel like this...continued with the daily life...than that black cloud started scolding people for being leaders but failing to plan and letting their respective CCAs clash with the prefects...he himself never set himself as an example of a leader still expect us to show leader qualities.... the stomp practice is a good example....of all the days available....he wants to choose a friday...and friday always have uniform group trainings......ownself never plan and look out for clashes before setting the date...still expect us to skip training...prefects so what?? its just a disorganised, corrupted and biased organisation...no use de...i rather go for ncc and not waste my time...
than later on went for a-maths class-test....not as difficult as expected.....so i went for my other classes with a less troubled mind...had a boring PE.....a almost horrible PCCG and than went downstairs....had my lunch and than watched punggol idol...watch until time up than went to change...but changed half way tempestt called zl and told him to tell me to go to the canteen immediately...but zl just told me tempestt wants me at the canteen but never state on how urgent it was...damn him...almost missed the whole thing....laughed my head off upon seeing what my junior was doing....continued with my changing and went to canteen to catch my 2 seniors singing than went stright for NCC...training was normal....was ment to be a ta-kan session....but than wasn't in the mood....march them here and there....than soon we dismissed them and went for our planning...recieved good news.....i was the tempory USM for next week...but than i won't be there for the first half of the training....cause of OBS....but nvm...after everything.....i had the feeling that i sure kenna PS by them again...its like always after school is usually everybody got wait for each other...but i always kenna PS...always like that de...they wait in the canteen the whole day not for their friends but for their steads...always used to wait for friends de...now just wait for the stead finish with everything le than go off le.... so pissed...they think got people wait for them will have people wait for me...damn it...than later give some lame excuse like thought i went home le....seriously lah....if u people think that i am that kind of person after 3 years of being friends...than i have nth to say le...somemore the world got such thing as the HANDPHONE....even if i have gone home for some funny reason i would have SMS u guys lor....somemore donno how to look for me first ah?? i comb the whole school for u all before i realised i kenna PS by my friends again...ok lor!! win liao lor!! my mood actually go good de....just bacause of this ...become drop until zer0....freak lah....hope my mood will be better at OBS.....its like already no chance to be in the punggol sec NDP already nvm le lor....now eugune everytime see me shoot his mouth off like some rat not happy with its cheese...damn irritating.....

whats happening?

2006-07-19T02:34:00.001-07:00

haiz.....suddenly don't feel like staying late in school anymore...i just don't feel right...whenever i stay...i just...sianzzzzzzz...its like...i feel rather extra...very odd...like i don't even belong to the group..... i donno y....but these feelings just come and i can't seem to be able to do anything about it but to leave school and go home...i try to get rid of that feeling by joking around....but i only managed to joke about the same thing...i coundn't smile much anymore...didn't have the mood to smile .....all i can do is just sit around and wait for somebody to notice ...but i don't think anybody will...

whats happening?

2006-07-19T02:34:00.000-07:00

...pressure..

2006-07-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

starting to feel the pressure of NCC postings.....i've failed in so many areas in my life.....i even failed to get a good post in the prefects...i'm such a failure.....i've decided to totally heck care about the prefects!!! I MUST CHIONG NCC LIKE I'VE NEVER CHIONG BEFORE....had decided to secrifice my prefects performance rehersal just to be on time for NCC.....and the consequence was that i was out of the performance....guess it was worth it...if its for NCC.....this is the last chance to gain back my self confidence.....i have to give NCC all i've got.....i must not fail..!!!....friday's (14/07/06) training was rather sucessful....missed the debrief cause i thought everybody went home liao but turned up that they were behind where i was sitting and than kenna suan... -_-" ... than was supposed to wait for fadzli to come online....wait wait wait....wait until sleep...sry fadzli!!

Saturday went tfor tuition...than later went to compass for lunch...after that went to tem's house to see her doggies......hang around till 10pm.....damn late......

Sunday was the day of the performance...in the morning kenna pissed off by the bloody vice head...than heck care and thought could enjoy the day cause i was out of the performance and was supposed to be free.....but in the end Ridwan called and asked me to help out the NCC duties.....we were supposed to do crowd control.....quickly got changed and went down to meet them....the crowd was very relax until the performance started....they started to push to the front....had to reinforce the exit line to prevent blockages...after everything went to pp with brig and company to punggol plaza....eat alittle than went home......such a busy weekend

my light?

2006-06-30T06:22:00.000-07:00

Well...nobody seems to visit my blog...but reading through the older posts.....i wonder y do i always post sad things?? was it because i couldn't find a suitable person to talk to?and i ask myself y can't i find a suitable person to talk to??and i answered myself.....cause nobody understands me....thats y i feel so alone....i tried to talk to a friend who i thought is an understanding person....but i was wrong...am i ment to be alone forever?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2006-05-19T07:24:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to me...happy birthday to me.......happy birthday to E.T.......happy birthday to me.......YAY!!!! I AM 15 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!!!!! whoooo hoooo....yea....15 man.....today rushed my chem project.....mr low so shocked that i could tie the nylon string to the tiny crystal....and he kept telling me that its not the way to tie it....but still he neba say anything when i sucessfully tied it....hehe.....donno wad happen...i told my group to come up the the lab A.S.A.P...but 45 mins later still not up.....must rush down to get them to come up.....haiz....doesn't mean i not around means donnit to care about the crystals rite? haiz...jkjk :P

anyway... i hurried home and met Mr shan and chong than Mr shan thought i got chased by someone...than mr chong down there smiling....ehhh......flew home after that got a bath and went to make my IC....so happens that when i reach le edwin was just about to leave......weee...met his mum too.....than i saw a group of ah bengs accompanying a friend to what i think make his IC ...than got this ah beng went up to this innocent looking school girl and asked if he can be her 'friend' ....the girl just sat there shake head all the way...heh...good for her!!!....yay...later on went to suntec to makan and walk walk....than me dad bought me a new ear piece.....cause the old one spoil le.....than i choose one without looking at the price ....than it wasnt beri cheap....very mahlu lor.....didnt wan me dad to spend so much money de.....but still....he bought it ...heh...so happie..... :D ......than we went to walk walk a while more than go home le...and here i am updating a damn long no update blog....wee.....

anyway.....thx for tagging but may i noe who are u chris ??

all alone...

2006-04-27T00:03:00.000-07:00

starting to feel very extra in the group....was it a mistake to change myself? my close friend found me childish...is it the reason y i am suddenly left out in so many things? was it a mistake to open up to u guys?would i be better off keeping everything to myself?do u guys look down on me and leave me out of everyhing cause i seem childish?feeling so cheated......no one seem to noe me truely.......some treat me as a brainless freak.....some treat me as a childish and inmature guy whos not worth making friends with....what am i really am to my friends?I HATE BEING LEFT OUT AND CHEATED BY MY OWN FRIENDS......ones who i share my probs with.....

it hurts.....

whats happening to my life?

2006-04-13T21:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to the Concert @the hub....met some of the prefects there...the concert was good....and ended late at night...so we could not go out today cause some parents dont allow.....sad sia....somemore last night that stupid eric sim not happie with my nick and wanna start another msn fight....always looking for trouble .....am i really in admin???i cant really trust anyone anymore....not even my friends??i donno wad to do....should i believe that its a fact ??or its a lie to keep me happy?

marksmen

2006-04-05T07:55:00.000-07:00

WAAAA....long time noo update......just came back from life range....shooting life bullets!!! so cool!!! .....today nothing much bad happened.....only thing is that the HQ messed up group one's target points...and i so happen to be in group one....sian.....but i hope that i still can get my marksmen badge....Mr Leong say that the results will be fexed over.....the rifle recoil isnt much of a difference from the computer ones....and i could slightly feel the sound wave when the rounds were fired off....wee....like little explosions everywhere.....boom boom boom....now i just hope that i get to get the badge....
its now 11.15pm by the way...

nobody?

2006-03-09T06:15:00.000-08:00

haiz...nobody visiting my blog nowadays...why?? donno....well...i'll just write about this very irritating incident....yesterday was ncc imt shoot....and soo many people turned up for it....mostly wanted to skip classes....bloody hell....almost half the squad have no respect for ncc...they do what they want when sitting in a file and can even leave the squad to chat with their friends......teachers walk by with disappointed faces at how the ncc cadets behaved.....some even left the squad and went to sit at the seats outside the HOD room in front of mr shan.....he had a look of shock on his face....the teacher officers and sergeants didnt care...issit because that i am the ic and all responsiblities are on me?? i went to them and told them to go back and fall in...and they pretended not to hear.....after a few tries i lost my paitience and shouted...it is only than did mr ong came to sweep them away...alston throwing threats at me all the way...and when the bus arrived....the whole group sourrounded me and beat me up in the bus....shouted for mr leong but he didnt listen....but all of them ran back to their seats.....nobody helped...maybe i deserved it for losing my temper....might actually serve as a good lesson....

HA....at least i found out one thing....I HAVE NO TRUE FRIENDS IN NCC.....

FUCK LAH

2006-02-25T06:12:00.000-08:00

u claimed that i have changed....what about u? u say that u have been giving way to others....have u ever thought of how others might have given way to you? u may be in a bod mood....do others know?cant u tell others nicely on what went wrong instead of showing attitude??i may seem to be in a good mood but i am not......i just dont wan people to see a black face and so i use another expression to cover my mood.....u show me attitude when u are in a bad mood.....but i didnt say anything....your attitude towards a person seem to change very fast nowadays..... u give me the feeling that u think that it is right to show attitude when u are in a bad mood......u treat me as a nobody when i treat u as a friend....and today u treat my sleepyness as attitude....u may be stressed but what about me? i maybe called an alien in school...but i am still human...i am already in a special bad mood today and u made it worse....what in the world do u want?

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

2006-02-01T03:53:00.000-08:00

chinese new year........holidays , ang paus.....and family gatherings.... sian......first day of chinese new year damn sian...sit one corner and stone....my sis went to sleep........and my cousin murdered a moth......sooooo sad.......went home and found that my MP4 can work liao.....YAY....2nd day of chi new year.......enjoyed every bit of it steamboat.....and whole lot of drinks and movies....3rd day of chi year .... rot at home......which is good..better than rotting somewhere else...most of my ang paus contain $4......at least some contain more... :P...total of about $200+ ........today school very sian........teachers change.......some changed to worse ones.......the rest stay put....haiz......sian

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2006-01-28T02:14:00.000-08:00

WTH!!!!! i accidently droped my handphone onto my mp4 player and the mp4 player broke!!!! NOOOOO.....THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!yesterday went out with edwin, tempestt, ze liang, bridget, and lei lei.........to watch a movie......went to macdonals to eat first.....than went to watch the movie......than we went home right away.......tem got into a bad mood over sth.....and was scolding someone on the phone on the mrt...haiz.....decided to drop at punggol station....very tired....

SKIN

2006-01-17T04:52:00.000-08:00

new skin for me bloggie......bwahahaha....actually is accidently press wrongly than had to change....anyway i should be doing hw.....zzz

zzz

2006-01-13T06:24:00.000-08:00

LONG TIME NO POST.........haiz......so tired.....came back from ncc......zzz.......today had C&C ....but didnt had the chance to give commands.....mr low was saying that he got permission to use the air rifle room but the next marksmen test is just next week.....really wanted the badge but it isnt easy....i have been feeling dull and down and cant think properly .....donno whats going through my mind.....somehow....i feel very odd when i am with my PSS friends....feeling left out in someway.....cant find the reason....tried to make myself forget by talking to them......but i can't shake the feeling........starting to look down on myself.....feeling like a failure.....

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-24T23:59:00.000-08:00

lol....few days ago went out with bridget, ze liang and edwin to watch harry potter......the show is nice.....that day last to reach home again......haiz.....wednesday went to the kovan tuition.....i forgot how to do most of the questions!!!!ahhhh..........and than the very next day donno y fainted.....but than donno how i land on the floor....sprained me hand......now my right hand cannot move too much.....T_T....my father brought me to the chinese physician at the bedok there to rub my hand.....friday still need to go back again.....sianz.....he tell me to eat 6 pills 3 times a day and than bandage up my hand until like some zombie ...wan me to die ah?.......went to another doctor to have a check up on y i fainted......doc say too much stress...haiz...holidays have stress meh?...lol......ya...maybe abit lah.......today cannot go tuition.... :P so happie......poor bridget must go on her own...... ^^......ayia dont type so much liao....later hand injury get worsen than die liao.......ahhh...touch wood.........i go ZZZ liao....

new music

2005-11-19T12:00:00.000-08:00

this new song i found comes from Final Fantasy VIII...............the name of it is called Eyes On Me by Faye Wong.....it sounds alittle bit old.....but it is still nice rite?

music

2005-11-13T18:08:00.000-08:00

I have just found the music but it is alittle depressing ...so hope u guys dont mind.....i am trying my best to find a new one....

new blog skin

2005-11-13T13:55:00.000-08:00

i have changed the blog skin .....i noe i have very little links...but really....i dont really make friends easily...and i am yet to find a music for this.....soo..hope u guys dont mind the scilence ....

ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzz

2005-11-08T17:35:00.000-08:00

ZZZzzzZZZZzzzZZZzzz......so sian.......nth to do.....ayio....cannot be late for duty liao!!! if not mr wu dont let us go for CCAs!!! tell him go to hell!!! he dare do that to me, i will rather quit prefects and spend time with ncc!!! .....humph!! rubbishy mr wu.........haiz..............juzz wish i could just forget about her.....donno y my brain dont wanna listen to me....................ahem!!....haiz.....few days ago went out with bridget ze liang edwin and tempestt.....gone to bugis to watch movie.....very interesting .....they tell to eat lunch at home ...but instead all of them didnt eat lunch at all.....so i juzz have to accompany them to KFC ....haiz......later we went for a movie.....very funnie!!...after that tem went home!! so the rest of us went to the national library.....got 13 floors!!! so high up!!!after that went to visit birdget's mother's shop.....ooooo......cannot afford to buy anything there......... all expensive stuffs!!! after that all went home liao........................haiz........................very bored at home......haiz....hope there will be another 6 innovative 2003 class gathering or PSS friends outing soon....

nobody?

2005-11-02T13:10:00.000-08:00

haiz....back again.....y nobody visit my blog one ah? ayia...must be too busy with their own work to drop by....haiz....wad for keep this blog when nobody visits it?haiz.....bicycle striped by a bloody bombastic baboon....now not in the mood to do anything............someone....pls liberate me from this missery....i really can't take anymore....i really can't.............my heart is having sharp pains now and than....its giving me breathing problems......someone..............................pls help me..........................

...

2005-10-30T22:30:00.000-08:00

yo....back to update me bloggy..........haiz.......only got a A1 a few A2 and the rest all horrible........haiz.......rubbish........than almost die of shock cause of some shocking news that i only found out today.....haiz......stuppidd auntie recommend me size 36 for the long pants.....i got so fat meh? i wearing around 30 only......tell her go die.......ayio....always collect shirt and pants collect the wrong size......ncc pants too big......keep telling mr leong to help me change he say wait until got chance....wait bloody 2 years still no chance....decided to go beach road buy.....NCC T-shirt size too small.....want to change also cannot......tell sir go die........ayio.....not in a good mood.......try to smile also so hard......ayia...go back to me old self lah.....that kind of expressionless face easier to live with...........ayia......keep falling out with friends......talk too much also can get scolded......than when i talk like talking to wall like that......haiz........ not very close with the sec 2 NCC cadets either.......looks like i am better off alone......

MIDDLE OF EXAMS!!!!!

2005-10-11T16:15:00.000-07:00

THIS IS THE MIDDLE OF EXAMS!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!!3 more days!!!YAY!!!!!!! faster come faster go!!!!!weeeee......sooo sleepy.....zzz...zzz.....ayio....tomorrow is history and D&T......sian........haiz.....thursday is maths!!!sooo fun and interesting.....got give formular somemore.....the questions must be very hard....eeks........die!!!!!lol......today the geog alittle hard to do....must stare out of the window for a very long time than i know the answer.....than got the map...donno y some people have the map the notes but some people dont have....than i dont have so i donno how to do.....cries.....those people evil one....got map notes dont wan to share....make me do soo badly....humph!! next time got notes i dont share with them......ayio......hope the exams will end faster......... -_-"

ROTTEN BLOGGY!!!

2005-09-26T22:35:00.000-07:00

MY BLOGGY IS ROTTING!!!! How can that be??!! How can it be rotting???!!?!?! Someone !! tell me!!!....And the ans is .....ET IS A LAZY BUMP!!!!! nooooooooooooo..................thats not true!!!! lol......just releasing stress......
ayio....10 days left to end of year exams......BRING IT ON!!! lol.....ayio.......last saturday got a COC parade....YAY at last can get me rank and award!!! Waaa...i tell u ah....the Punggol NCC shirt i ordered ah......just nice for me leh.....its a little tight in the sholders.......but sad ah......sir say cannot change.........WAAA....box him!!! "bish!!" weeee......sir fly to china town!!! lol....shhhh ...cannot let him see!!! dont say anything ah!!!Very sad case leh.....y Poh Chiew didnt get the best cadet award???!!?!? he soooo good!!! y didnt get leh??.....ayia...according to "some people" they say that sir KOK eye!!! lolz!!alamak.....say sth bad about him again!!! oh no!!!! shhh!!!! cannot let him see!!!!who got correction pen??!!! must go liquid it off!!!..hehe
...wa.....that day when i go collect the award ah....i kok up leh!!! I want to take the prize than he want to shake my hand....than i decided to follow him and shake his hand but he at the same time decided to give me my award...than i down there gong gong one.....than he forced me to shake hand and than passed the award to me......very the wad leh......!!!!ayio......next year cannot get best cadet liao.......DIE LAH!!! T_T.....still owe 888 push ups....how?? i do hundred also got problem liao...wa.....die!!!!.....at least now got a heigher rank and 1 more badge!!! BWAHAHAHAHA.....BUT STILL I DIDNT GET THE MARKSMEN BADGE!!!!!!! CRIES!!! nest time if go life range still cannot get ah... i go shoot myself!!!BOOM!!!! Than u can see a HOLLY ET !!!!! than can go dong dong chiang liao.....lol.......than can say bye bye to my friends family NCC maplestory.....and the very special person to me.....(its for me to know and for u to find out) ...CRIES......ayia...nvm....i go beach road buy all the badges and decorate my room lah!!!and one more thing....THANK YOU PART C, SIR AND FELLOW CADETS FOR TEACHING ME SOO MUCH!!!AND THANK YOU MY FRIENDS FROM PSS 2C AS WELL AS IN NCC FOR ENCOURAGING ME!!! I WILL NEVER FORGET WAD U GUYS DID TO HELP ME!!! :P
oh ya....and about when will i put up my next post....i not sure lah....maybe a month later?? lolz....who knows??

30 July 2005

2005-07-30T13:00:00.000-07:00

wad a wonderful satarday....raining so heavily.....my sis caught a baby bird 2 days ago.....donno wad species....have been feeding it bread....hmmm.....very sian......nth to do.....2 days ago also went to bridget's house....first time go her house....her house got alot of fish.....too bad cannot cook and eat :P ..... jkjk.....sooo tired.....at last Mr Tan started on graphs......its just the basic....my sister's graphs more chim.....curve here and there one.....next friday is IMT2 liao....marksmen test.....I WANT THE BADGE!!!!anybody got any advice on shooting??

SPEECH DAY !!!

2005-07-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

The speech day was a sucess!!! Wa......today must wake up at 4am in the morning....than from the computer room go to the ncc room....sooo far away.....after rushing here and there i went to the staff room with mr low to collect the newspaper to clean the rifle....i left the newspaper at a drain outside the home econs room than went to eat breakfast. Mr Low soooo good.....cook noodles for us .....than it started raining.....soo sad.....eat finish breakfast must wash the plates ourself.....the poor wet newspaper was left forgotten on the ground...sir spotted the papers and faster collect it...Later we boarded the bus and we left for camp....it drizzled but at the camp the rain just stop....we collected the rifle and went back to the bus......On the bus we cleaned the rifle with the newspapers and on the rute back to school it drizzled.....ayia......why the rain wont stop....... ......when we reached school...the sky was sooooo cloudy.....hope no rain........we went to the D&T block to get used to the weight of the rifle....very soon we managed to get used to the weight .......we got a last rehersal and went to the form up place...when the parade started we forgot to tell the band wait for awhile before playing the music....and than when the parade was ready....the guest was late......somemore she was late for around 20 mins!! sooo evil guest...too bad i didnt have a bullet in my rifle...if not i will put a hole through her head!!!after the marching we took a few pictures returned the rifle to camp ....come back to school and than dismissed!!! yay!!! sooo tired....!!i faster ran to the hall to watch the rest of the performence....yay...donnit to do duty....sooo tired.....went back to ncc room to have some drinks...went down for some food and than went home !!!!! what a long and wonderful day.............................

15 July

2005-07-15T18:31:00.000-07:00

A day before the speech day.....going to sleep in school today...and it rained this afternoon.....hope it doesnt rain tomorrow.....i have a bad feeling that i am going to have a very short sleep..... =(

11 july 2005

2005-07-11T17:30:00.000-07:00

waaaa........actually today nothing to say one.....but got bloody englich lesson thats why i got sth to say....i can't understand the english teacher......alittle bit only walk out of the classroom...if not cry...what is this...?? And than tempestt went to give her a packet of tissue but she just took it and throw it on the ground. Who does she think she is ? I felt like wacking her in the face.....if she want to teach like that might as well go to primary school and teach lah...why come to a secondary school to teach???ayio....nothing to say to her....and than after school got a prefects meeting....ayia....change duty again...now become downstairs at the gates.....sad case....and somemore today i fall sick....what the hell............................................. =(

Satarday...sooo sad...

2005-07-09T20:50:00.000-07:00

today supposed to go to expo with tempestt, eric and amanda for a talk but then eric and i have to attend a speech day rehersal.....sooo sad....wanted to go for the talk but can't.....instead of enjoying the air-corn at the expo......i ended up getting cooked under the sun...and than at the starting sir not happy with us.....he said that we sux and told us he didnt want to care about PSS NCC anymore..he even took his rank out..and told us that he wanted nothing to do with us after the speech day.......i got damn pissed off....i could have gone to the expo and enjoyed myself and here i am suffering under the sun with all my seniors and there he is scolding us...and then after the scolding us our senior quickly brought us to the back of the school and talked to us...we wanted to prove sir benjamin wrong......when the seniors were talking i noticed mr low was sitting with another female teacher at a stairsace....wonder what they are doing??? :P
anyway......we managed to prove sir wrong at the end of the rehersal and i could see that he was impressed...well....hope nothing goes wrong at the speech day...

I AM BACK

2005-07-08T15:30:00.000-07:00

Yoez!!! Long time no post!!!!!the music nice rite?? =) wa......holidays soo fast over.....sooo sad..... T_T......sooo many things going on tomorrow......donno why all on Satarday. Must reach school at 7 am tomorrow....ayia......hope mr low dont blow up ......that time he kicked the wall and until now his footprint still there :)

on 6 July 2005 , wednesday, NCC celebrated NCC day.......actually the parade very smooth one.....but one of the senior say pledge wrongly and than when turning that time Mr Leong point wrong direction......than everybody turn wrongly........damn sad......hope it doesn't happen on the speech day.....^^

2005-05-13T22:35:00.000-07:00

waaaa.....today sooo good first time go out with PSS friends. Its been 6 months since i had smiled soo much...maybe its because of my friends around me or maybe its something else. waaa....went all the way to the army market there to eat than walk around lavender ,than went back to PS shopping centre. we took some neoprint and then tem mei had to go. There ...edwin took my $50 to buy bridget's birthday present. T_T my money....only edwin returned me his share of everybody still haven return my money...T_T.....later they bought me my birthday present!! ^_^ soo good!!! it was a prism(not sure how to spell) it can seprate white light into its different colours!!!after that we decided to go home......when the train moving towards punggol i was alone....everybody got off the train liao......sooo sad...must go home alone...anyway.......today was fun....

LONG TIME NO POST!!!!! :P

2005-04-20T23:30:00.000-07:00

wa.......very long didnt post liao.....ayia.....today not very good day........during recess i got very pissed off.....nobody was doing their duty.....only me ........but later 10:20 ze liang and WZ came......the rest leh?? didnt even came to petrol.....all sleeping in the canteen..(issit when tempestt mei didnt come means can skip duty???) ..than i went back to class.....my table was in a GREAT mess. Some bloody IDIOT drew all over my worksheet.....table........everything was in a mess of pencil markings. Sooo bloody pissed off.............thinking of NCC training makes me more stressed........dont think today got time to study for chinese test liao....stupid english teacher give soo much HW.........than during NCC everybody got scolding from mr low........all the sirs sooo unreasonable.....not my problem also scold me....how would i noe the reason why they didnt come if they didnt come and tell me why......then later during GOH training have to tell the sir that i havent learnt this havent learnt that.......luckly after NCC training poh chiew came to teach me arms drill....ayia......dont felling like comming to school liao.............well....at least this is the last week of NCC training...........for this term that is.....almost forgot got traiing for the GOH on the 17, 18 & 25may.......wa.......soo close to my birthday...............

2005-04-01T13:15:00.000-08:00

April fool's day.....isn't today supposed to be a funny day? why am i sooo pissed off.?? why??because of the prefects lah.....wei zhong wanted tempestt mei to go help him with 1a...but ended up i go because tempestt mei didnt come....i hanged around the canteen until 10:17am but soo little people bothered to sign in...soo i decided to go to blk E and deal with 1A . i told christina that i am at blk E anything wrong can find me...after recess the prefects started to complain to me say can't find me. Some kept back by teacher...but if so, they should tell me when they reach the canteen and not wait until eat finish than say.......eric keep on asking me why must i go and help wei zhong and not tell some other person to go instead? isnt it obvious? only a few prefects won my trust ...i do not trust the rest...who knows if i send a prefects i do not trust , he/she might hide one corner and sleep...and than more problems will come....all prefects are supposed to eat finish BY 10:10 and start doing their duty AT 10:15. the extra 5mins are to do things like signing in.....and wad i see the prefects doing?? eating slowly and chating at the same time...after recess i went to talk with the teacheof 1A and i think 1 A will not bully wei zhong anymore......than i ran back to class to see bridget mei angry with me....not sure why...than after school went to look for Mr Wu to talk to him about the prefects...but cant find him.........wa liao....donno weather i should quit or not......

2005-03-30T23:38:00.000-08:00

I am back........everyday getting more stressful........today everything was normal.....nothing much happened..........accompanied Tempestt mei to see Mr Wu.........needed his advice........than at home........i was wondering why the prefects need a sign in/out book?? all prefects should noe when to do their duty and when to enjoy themselves......why do prefects need to sign in ?? if the prefects are in other school...i think half the sec 2 prefects won't last long...all relaxing during recess....not doing their duty..........ayio....now think sooo much until have no mood to do maths..........soo deep in thought even when people talking in msn i also donno until my sis walks by and kicks me chair to wake me up.........feeling too filled up with problems.............

2005-03-27T23:00:00.000-08:00

Wake up in the morning sooo tired..........But still must wake up.........2 weeks didn't go archery liao...today must go....when reach Sembawang CC got soo many people reach there liao.....spent 5 mins setting up my bow..... than when shoot i realised my skills rusty liao.....2 weeks only and my skills become soo bad.........now 4 arrows are being repaired and one is beyond repair T_T.................................$8 flew away just like that.........than someone realised that i needed some advice with my shooting so he kept watching me and kept telling me to hold the string and dont let go...very hard to use the bow..........maybe i should down grade to wooden bow for a while? nah.........than later the instructor tells me that the bow string too long.......-_-"....now than tell me.....ayio....soo mah fan......must twist the string here and there so make it shorter....but no time liao...must go home and continue..........later in the evening still got swimming.........sooo xian............................hope tomorrow will be a good day...........

2005-03-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

Aiyo...........come back from school sooo pissed off.....actually should be happy happy one but become sooo angry!!!! Before go recess i was quite in a good mood....than after recess become sooo angry................i try to trust them that they will do their duty but........some of them just won't co-operate........i don't wanna chase them to do their duty...but it is my duty to do so. i am glad and happy that most of the prefects does their duty but there are some of them that just won't do.......i wanted to take about 5 mins of my time to check on them but ended up using the whole recess trying to get them to do their duty and than they will say that i never do my duty......never knew that the prefects would be harder to handle than the pupils........should i report this to mr wu ...or should i give all the prefects another week of chance........wad should i do??

2005-03-22T18:50:00.000-08:00

Just came back from my 1 day 2 nite camp......VERY TIRED!!!! The food they give is very sucky. Wanted to go for rock climbing but no time to climb....everybody took too long to climb..... T_T....wanted to try the flying fox but the flying fox tower still under construction.... -_-''' . At night when i was trying to sleep but was busy thinking about my school friends....thinking that the camp would be more fun with them around.....We went for archery and saw Mr Leong trying to shoot ....he took the bow and realised that it was upside down....after that i didn't have the chance to watch him as the squad was moving out... soo sad...was wondering wad would happen to his bow next.......During paintball i got shot 2 times but nobody saw soo i just hid the paint mark and nobody saw :P . Was about to ' kill ' 3 people as they didnt notice me but the time was up.... T_T . now i have 2 black mark on my arm cause the ' bullet ' was very hard and was trevelling very fast. I miss my friends......

HELP

2005-03-13T14:25:00.000-08:00

Can anyone help me with my blog?